I need inspiration. Not just another negotiation.

I obsess. It's what I do. Call it creative inspiration, but I do it.

I've just seen "Queen of the Damned" which is a most genial film! <3 :) I loved it. I actually like it better than "Interview with a vampire", because Lestat is young and sexy, and a rockstar in this one! :P and when he gets together with Akasha (queen of the damned) they're so cute! And I know two vampires being all bloody isn't what most people would call "cute" but their expressions... they were just like little kids! *puppy eyes* (little bloody kids, but still... :P) It's a must see, and I recommend it highly. If only to add another guy to my list of hotties. :P I guess I do really have a thing for "bad"-boys. ^^ But then again, I always knew that (Cole <3)

Enough of that. My birthday was yesterday, and I am now EIGHTEEN years old... whaaaw. I feel so mature, and responsible, and grown-up now ^^ (not really). It's time to go out into the world, and get a job, and a family. Or? Hmm, there's nothing really different about me, and it makes no sense to me that one day should change so much about your life... but I do sense the difference, and I know I'll feel it clearer soon. Ah well.

These days I'm so tired, I've just been falling asleep the minute I get home from school. I am sleep deprived to the limit, and I'm so tired that I don't even care anymore! :O today I was so tired that I stayed in bed, and caught a buss at nine (instead of the school buss at seven thirty) and got to school late. I need to get myself together, but I. just. don't. see. why. :( I need inspiration, meaning, achievement, creation.

Anywho, I'm gonna watch some episodes of 90210 now, before trying to do some homework (possibly). I need to sleep this weekend, so that I'm not completely dead for my party next friday. Waaaahw.

(Isn't she the cutest queen you've ever seen? :) and Lestat ;) can't complain either way.)

~Leene~ "All I wanna do is find a way back into love." xoxx

Are we human, or are we dancer?

I'm feeling like I really wanna skip school tomorrow... I'm tired, and I can't be arsed to go :( besides, if it's my b-day, shouldn't I get to stay home in bed all day eating cakes and sweets and opening pressies?? :P

Wah, right now I'm lying in bed listening to "Lollipop with BigBang and 2ne1" :] loves that song.

And another little quotey for you:
"I am jealous of everything whose beauty does not die." DORIAN I LOVE YOU! So honest :P

And since I'm in a vain mood now (due to reading DG), I was thinking of maybe watching Shoppaholic... hmm... :P but I'm tired, and hungry, and it's late.

I'll post more tomorrow, probably. Loveeee, and thank yooou Kini for the wonderful pic-prezzies I got earlier :D

~Leene~ "pretty boy." (I think we all know who that is ;P) xoxx

I'm so sorry but I love you

I'm sitting in bed, wrapped in my double duvet, with Josie (my laptop) in my lap, coz she's so warm, and I'm so cold... :P hahah, cozy time! :D

Anyway, I promised you quotes, so here they are:

"When I like people immensely I never tell their names to any one. It is like surrendering a part of them. I have grown to love secrecy."

"I like persons better than principles, and I like persons with no principles better than anything else in the world."

"It is only the intellectually lost who ever argue."

And my personal favourite:
"Dorian's whims are laws to everybody, except himself."

~Leene~ "Just a bit of heaven for you, my love (and because I stole your title :) thank you for sharing <3)" xoxx

I am what YOU made me!

Just thought I'd show you some of my art. This is what I draw on my friends' arms :)

~Leene~ "Gonna be tearing this mother right down." xoxx

You can be a sweet dream, or a beautiful nightmare

"No artist is ever morbid. The artist can express everything."

"We can forgive a man for making a useful thing as long as he does not admire it. The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensely. All art is quite useless." -Oscar Wilde.

Wow, and I've officially started reading Dorian Gray. There'll probably just be coming more and more quotes from now on :P prepare thee.



I wonder what my soul would look like... :P



It's a scary thought I suppose, but that's why we like it?




Anyway, I curled my fringe to look old fashioned... does it show? :)


These pearls look almost good enough to eat... 0:)


Is this outfit colourful enough to make me look like a K-pop singer? 0:)

So, today I've been listening to K-pop alot (along with watching Narnia of course), and I've been quite obsessed. The happy up-beat music, and the cute singers with way too colourful clothes... why wouldn't I just fall for it? :P So 2ne1's Fire has been at the top, but I've found alot of other groups to listen to also :)
It's been a good, relaxing day, but I'm glad I have two free periods tomorrow morning, coz I haven't slept as much as I should... ah well, when do I ever? Time for bed now though, as I have a long day of cleaning ahead of me when I get home from school tomorrow.

Oyasumi Nasai! :)

~Leene~ "I can express everything." xoxx

I need a fix coz I'm going down...

"Once I desire something...
I cannot undesire it.
I cannot even try to resist.
I will desire it until I have it.
But there is no end.
No matter how much I take,
I still want."

Thought that was a fitting introduction, because I just found "The picture of Dorian Gray" amongst my stepfather's books, and I'm thrilled :P I want to read it so bad, and I just thought "maybe he's got it" (coz he's got all sorts of cool, old books), and BAM, he did. :) I feel like I'm obsessing, and it's all Kini's fault ;) Though I actually kind of wanted to buy the book while I was in London (what did I say; I really am fascinated by the title, and his name :P coz I've never read anything about the book itself XD) and now that I've seen the trailer, and the pictures (and the fact that Ben Barnes plays in the movie, no lie :P) I just needed it.

I want to write an amazing and deep book like Dorian Gray. If it just wasn't so difficult... :P



Anyway, today I've been watching Narnia: Prince Caspian all day. Not the movie with Ben Barnes (although, talking about him yesterday must be what made me want to watch Narnia all of a sudden), but the old TV show that used to go in Norway every Christmas. It's much better than the movies, but it's quite different. Like; in the movie the kids are all teenagers, and Susan and Prince Caspian kind of have a thing going. Whereas in the TV show, they're all just kids, and Prince Caspian is a kid too, so no love whatsoever there :P I like it because it reminds me of the old days, and even though the special effects are crap, and you just have to laugh at the beavers and other animals, it's the original. To be honest I never liked the movie. Only the Prince Caspian one (and that's all on you, Ben :P).

Anyway, I'm going to go upstairs and watch "George Gently" with my mum now, so I'll blog more later :P probably.

All my love!

~Leene~ "He reminds me of you, and I love him for it." xoxx

I can't speak french, so I'll let the funky music do the talking

Today I woke up crying. I was having a bad dream (about my mom being angry at me), and I suddenly wake up, and it's the middle of the night, and tears are streaming down my face. It was horrible. I hate waking up crying, it's even worse than starting to cry during the day, coz it's like you have no control. Crying during daytime can be good because you get to let it all out, and feel better afterwards. When you wake in the middle of the night on the other hand, there's no control. I hope it won't happen again.
During the summer last year I dreamt that my stepfather got hit by a train, and I woke up crying then too. You're so innocent when you sleep; there're no lies, or hiding your emotions, or your thoughts. So I think it's natural to cry from those kind of dreams, but I still don't like it. Not cool.

Anyways, I've had an autumn-cleaning day today :) going through all the boxes that make my room look like a storage-room instead of a bedroom, and I've thrown away three full bags of paper from old school-work, to crap I've kept all these years. It's time to throw away everything I don't need, because I want to be a better person, and there are lots of people who need the things more than me. Besides, I need new things ;) lol.

Also, you know when you find old stuff that you haven't looked at in years, and you still love it when you see it? It made me realize that you can love something, but not have to think about it all the time. It's still love, and you'll still have the good feelings when you see it again. :) that's one of the nice things about cleaning through my junk. I get to love again :)

The music of the day has been Girls Aloud, and I must admit I've listened to them on repeat for a good half of the day. Right now I'm listening to Anna Tsuchiya though, but I'm gonna go to bed as soon as this is done :) My back aches from having sat in a bad posture on the floor all day, while going through all my old shit, so I'm exhausted.

Just wanted to pop in and say hi :P "Hi :)"

(The last picture is one of the things I found that I made probably round six years ago :P haha, but it's cute though, neh?)

I'm going now, so toodles ;)

~Leene~ "Me, me, me, me, me, me, it's all me tonight." :P xoxx

What did we ever do to you?

I've just found the best site ever! :P ok, so I'm in school, doing scenography (1920's era :D), when I stumble upon the most amazing thing I've ever seen! : http://charmed.wikia.com/wiki/Charmed_Wiki. It's basically a wikipedia about every aspect of Charmed! :D <3 I'm so hooked. It's got all the spells, and absolutely every detail of every episode, I mean... someone has done a real good job :] This just made my day, so I wanted to share it :P lol.


That being done, I am so fucking cold! :P my school does not have proper heating, and apparently we're not gonna get it either until mid-october! :O Ah, well. I'll just spend all my time complaining about it, so that's fine ;) makes things better.

~Leene~ "I'm trying to stay composed." xoxx

When I'm with you baby, I go out of my head. And I just can't get enough.

Good morning bloggers! :P

I woke up with "I just can't get enough" stuck on repeat in my head, and I really do like the old songs :) I think I like the 80's, and the 60's, and I definitely like the 20's. :D I took a test online once, and it said I was a flapper in a past life :P (yea, I liked that answer...)
Anyway, today I've had Art for three hours, and we had to draw a portrait of an old man's face... he was very wrinkly, and I really didn't want to draw him :P buut, I was a good girl (for the first time this year XP) and so I drew. It took me about an hour and a half? and I got to listen to music while doing it, so I was actually really relaxed. It was a good day, and when I was done I was online for the remaining hours. Which is what brought me here again ;) lol.

I'm going to my dad's after school, it's kind of become a Wednesday tradition :P I like it though. I feel like I'm more a part of his family than ever before, and I think that's the way it should be. It's right. :)

I'm happier than in a long time, but at the same time I miss London so much that it hurts sometimes. Sometimes I just need the anonymity of a big city. The possibility of going shopping whenever I want. The opportunity to go to Starbucks, KFC and Chinatown. Seeing things I've never seen before, even though they've always been there. Finding the time to explore the world. :P I need my LDN fix!

That being said, it's time for History class now, and I do like the teacher, so maybe I should keep being a good girl and pay attention ;)

I leave you with pictures of Kat Bjelland, Courtney Love and Babes in Toyland. I really love that whole kinderwhore scene, so yah. :) It's my inspiration for the day ^^




(And check out that cool jacket wrap thing on the top picture! :P I LOVE that, and I WANT IT! :P buy me it for my b-day pwetty pweease?)

I love you and leave you now.

~Leene~ "Sun is in the sky, oh why, oh why would I wanna be anywhere else?" xoxx

You're my heart breaker <3

Ok, I know you don't care about pictures, so I'm going to spend my free period blogging ^^ (more like *coughramblingcough*)

Yesterday I watched a New Moon trailer that I hadn't seen before, which really intrigued me, and annoyed me, and WAH, made me want to see the movie real bad. Buuut, since that wasn't possible, next best thing was to continue reading the book (since I've been on a break for a few months... =P). I started liking Jake more and more as I read, something I don't like, but then all of a sudden I hated him again, then I liked him, and in the end I decided something. I'm going to like Charlie best from now on, because he's never "broken" my heart. XD yea, I realize these are characters from a book, and it's not real, but I stil get carried away. It's been a while since last time, and I enjoyed it.

Now, enough about Twilight. I'm sitting in school now, at half past eight in the morning, and I wish I could stil be in bed (since I have two free periods now), and I wish today wasn't such a boring day, and I wish I stil had my psychology book... :P However, it's a really nice day today (blue sky, sunnny), so I'm just going to try to enjoy it ^^ and even if I can't learn anything from school, I always learn things for myself along the way, so I'm sure it'll be fine ;)

Wow, I feel like I should be rambling on and on about something now, but I guess I'm just a little tired, and my mind is kind of blank...

So I'll be going then (facebook, no doubt :P). Sayonara!

~Leene~ "If I'm silly, then you're dangerously unbalanced ^^" xoxx

We can make it last forever

Oh, wow, I really haven't been a good blogger lately :S well, it's almost midnight now, school tomorrow, so I'll try and be brief.

Starting school again has been fun, boring, time-consuming, healthy and tiring. ^^ Yeah, all of those. I've started to like History this year (ok, so maybe it is because the teacher is cute ;) he's also in his fifties, so... :P no dice), and I really hate art. ^^ Wah. The good thing about this year is that it's my last year, we don't need to take maths this year, we're Russ this year (Norwegian thing, can probably be googled :P), and we're going all over the place to party, and do mischief :P Doesn't sound like a normal school-ritual now does it. But it is, though, totally ;)

Anyway, I've had to start thinking about my future (dreadful thing :P), and I think I've decided to try to go to a dance-school next year... so yah.

It's also 23 days til I turn 18, so... iiiihhhh!!! XD I'm not really sure how it's gonna go down, or how I truly feel about turning 18, and officially being an "adult", but... you know, some aspects are cool ;)

Now, about this Summer; it's been a really good summer this year, a very different one from any other year. I haven't been to Spain, or Denmark or anywhere with my dad (like I usually am), instead I had his house to myself for ten days! So during that time I've learnt alot about myself, and I've really liked this summer. It's funny, when you can feel yourself growing as a person, and changing from who you used to be. Really weird. Maybe I'm the only one who thinks about those kind of things, but yah... weird. I haven't really been "home" this summer, but I suppose my dad's house is "home" too... in a way... I think it's meant to be anyway. ^^

Wow, really "deep" (not). So, I'm going to go to bed now, and try not to let it go forever until next time I blog.

Oh, and by the way, I fell in love this summer ^^ ;) haha, bet you didn't see that one coming, and neither did I to be honest. Anyhow, it's in my dad's house. So, not that exciting. BUUUUUUTTT, I really want to buy it (since he's selling it), and I don't know what I'll do if he sells it! :S It's been my longest lasting home ever. Even though I haven't lived there full-time, it's still the house that one part of my family has lived in since I was 6, and I've just never had that anywhere else. So I feel like this is the last connection I have to my childhood, (and how weird is that?) and I don't want to lose it. :(

Whatever. I'm going. :P

~Leene~ "Hot like wow" xoxx