I feel the pressure, it's coming down on me

Happy Monday, and I'm so glad I don't have school, even though the restlessness of having a holiday is stil there.

Saturday was my friend's 18th birthday party, which was funnn. It started at seven, and some people were even drunk by nine! (I WILL NOT name names... *blushes*) Anywho, there was bbq'ing, swimming in her pool (they have a pool!!! :P), and relaxing in her bubblebath. I didn't do any bathing, as I had managed to CUT my KNEE on a box of corn, which had those sharp edges... yeah, this was a little after eight, and everyone was very nice to me :P I think partying together can bring people closer, lol. Anyway, so my friend didn't have ANY band-aids in her house, because apparently her little sister LOVES them (which I understand XD), so my other friend's boyfriend went over and asked the neighbours :] which was very nice of him.

There was lots of music and jumping around followed, and a drinking game ("I have never"?), and by half past two am most everyone had left. My friend's boyfriend J, and his friend M were still there, and in no condition to drive home :P so they stayed the night too. In the end we were five ^^ lol. Anywho, my friend (whose 18) was a little annoyed with some of us, because we stole her bed, even though she clearly told us not to... well, what can you do? :P

It was a good party, but when I came home the day after, I felt so empty... do you ever get that? It's like, you've been to a good party with lots of people, and you've been talking to them and having a good time, and then you come home again, and all of a sudden you're alone, and there's so much silence... (and ok, maybe your head or your stomach hurt a little too, but for different reasons XP) I just hate that feeling. It makes me think that I'm probably one of those people who could become an alcoholic... because it's nicer to not feel the bad feelings... :P we're just spoilt rotten, huh. ;)

Well, I have to go now, because I'm gonna go to my dad's for the rest of the day, I think, since I'm leaving the country on Friday... :)

(The picture is of my wounded knee :P but it looked a hell lot worse when it was pouring with blood... ^^)

~Leene~ "The boy does nothing" (you should listen to that song, by Alesha Dixon :P) xoxx

Patron tequila

So, today has been a pretty good, social day for me ^^ went down to my grandparents to hang with my aunt, and we danced and jumped around like crazy for at least an hour. (there was even a black-curly wig involved, lol. But it got too hott to wear for a long period of time... XD) We listened to everything from Eminem, Pussycatdolls, Adrienne Bailon, Kat DeLuna, to Lady Gaga and even some really old school music that we used to listen to like when I was seven... :P in the good old days in other words, lol.

Check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qvX0IvJwkng It's called Bailando... maybe you've heard it :P When I was little I thought it was in English (coz I thought anything I couldn't understand must be English), but today is the first time I realize that it's not, coz I STILL can't understand! XD lol. Quite funny.

Another song I'm kinda obsessed with is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Xx6aBfRlUo which is a real party song, so it should be good for tomorrow, when my friend is celebrating her sweet 18th :P wonder what shape I'll be in by Sunday morning... but we don't worry about those kinda things before they happen XD

Anyway, my aunt was bugging me to do her make-up and fix her hair (because apparently mine was so pretty... what can I say; I'm a genius ^^ XD) so in the end I said ok, and we spent forever trying to curl her hair, then thinking we had broken my grandmother's curler (which turned out to be just fucked up, so she said it was normal for it to just turn off at random... o_O weeeird yo). Then I did her make-up, and I made a comment about a chunk of hair that she had on the side of her head, which was supposed to be side-bangs, but really just looked like a shorter chunk of hair, and I said I wanted to cut it, and after some sweet-talking (basically me going "but how hard can it beee? It's eaaaaasy pieccccy... ^^") she let me cut her hair! She was sooo sceptical, it wasn't even funny, but we had a few laughs, and I ended up cutting it and then teasing it on the top at the back to make it look 60's... she's a difficult customer I must say :P but I did feel kinda pro... except for that time when one of those long-legged flying-spiders came into the bathroom we were in, and we screamed and ran and shut the door... :P we're still just girls, lol.

Tomorrow I'm getting up early to shower and prepare to go to my friend's at five (when I say early, I mean elleven ^^ XD lol), and then the party starts at seven. My uncle is coming home too, so I should go say hi before hitting the scene.

I keep smelling my legs because my aunt gave me some new Bodylotion of hers, and I put it on, and it smells like HEAVEN! :P so now I keep sniffing my legs, and I really should stop, lol.

(Picture of my cute new baby-doll dress <3 I adore. I love the kind of kinderwhore 80's-90's style, rocked by Courtney Love and Kat Bjelland. I just Lolita-fy it. :P I guess it's sweet lolita kinderwhore then... XD wow, and I actually look a little tan in that picture... :P)

~Leene~ "Bailando, bailando <3" xoxx

You want the truth? You can't handle the truth...

Today I woke up just before elleven, and have already eaten breakfast now. I'm pretty amazed, lol. Specially since I didn't go to sleep until late last night, due to being very awake and a bit freaked and very warm. :P

I think I'm gonna head down to my grandparents today... and then my friend is also coming back from a festival tonight, so I need to hear all the dirt XP

It's now only a week till I go back to beautiful England, and I CAN'T WAIT! :D Aaah, the shops must have missed me... :P (the people too, but I'm still in contact with them, lol).

So, maybe it's time to make a shopping list then? Okay, I need: shoes, mangas, tv shows, claire's goods :P, sunglasses, tutus, japanese sweets, new look clothes... well, these are the basics, but you know I'm just gonna fill my suitcase with everything. And I really want a new fur-coat :P but it's summer, so I don't know if I'll find it... haha.

(Check out my tattoo... :P homemade. ^^)

~Leene~ "I'm bad, I'm bad... :P" xoxx

Let's grow old together, and die at the same time...

OHHHH, and one last thing: MICHAEL JACKSON R.I.P!!! :'( I can't believe he's dead... I hate when people die, and even if I wasn't personally a fan of him, I always liked him, and he was always "there". He was M.J for crying out loud! So I can't believe it.


And I saw a documentary on him once, and he was talking about his Neverland and his childhood, and I just liked him. He seemed like such a child, you'd want to protect him, and like him automatically. That's how I feel anyway.

(Picture of his good days. He was a legend, everybody knows who he is! And look, he even had RayBans ^^ :P <3)

My favourite songs were: Billy Jean, Thriller, Beat it and I'm bad...

~Leene~ "Die young and save yourself." xoxx

Baby you'll never be good for me...

So I've been a good little blogger today, neh? :P anyway, it's around half past one am now, so I should go to bed... but I just wanted one last post. ^^ (I guess it's coz of the TWO picture-less blogs earlier, that I feel I need to do this... XP):




A few pictures I think are cute.
1. The lonely vampire girl who wants somone to love. Aww <3 and she kind of looks like a mermaid, so it's doubble goods. ^^
2. What I want to look like... lol, at least I'd love to have that doll. I love dolls :D
3. Such a pretty picture of Marilyn!

~Leene~ "It's cos people can't change it that they call it fate, you know?" xoxx

When you walked through the door it was clear to me

I want a kitty. Like, really bad. So can we please adopt one for summer?? Or just foster one while I'm in England? :P lol, I just really feel like a kitty-cuddle, it's insane. A grey kitten, and I'd call him... heck, I don't know yet. OhMyGod, yes I do! I'd call him Bandit of course... :P Bandit Baby <3



(Basically I just googled grey kitten... :P but aren't they to die for?? <3)

So let me know what you think. ^^

~Leene~ "You're the one they adore, who they came to see. You're a rockstar." xoxx

"I've just crossed the line, from fashion to crime."

Summer's here, and every summer I have some things that I like more than others. :P And it might just be the idea of some things, but I'm going to make a list anyway. Last year it was Black & White summer for me, with checkers everywhere, and black hair, the works. This year... well, we'll see.

I'd say Tv-wise, it's two shows; The Girls Next Door, and Bones. Obviously :P
Books: I'd say I really need to get through New Moon... lol.
Hair: Beehive, or Bombshell. ^^ both unaccomplishable (is that a word?) for me.
Clothes: short dresses, white t-shirts, and short-shorts. Like Daisy Duke's.
Shoes: black ones or red ones. Always red ones, coz it's so fairy-taley. So Wizard of Oz. So magic-land. Yeah, I just love red shoes. ^^
Jewellery: lots of it. Lots of bracelets and rings, but maybe not as many necklaces as usual... I dunno. We'll see. :P
Music: PANIC AT THE DISCO, A FEVER YOU CAN'T SWEAT OUT <3 ok, so this CD is always my summer music, but seriously. At least I listen to them once a year.
Drink: Water... lots of water. Also smoothie <3 made out of strawberries and youghurt, or one with: strawberries, litchi (dunno what that is, but it sounds cute, and is goood. :P), rasberries and apples. Its very good :] the only smoothies I've liked so far, lol. Also Red Bull.
Ice-cream: always chocolate, but for England -since they have it- blue ice-cream. Tastes like plastic, but such a cool colour :P
Brand: Playboy ^^ :P
Colours: I think I'd say pink, and old-pink, peach... Kinda old-fashioned beige colours. Lol, I don't even know myself what I'm saying.

I want to write more, but I can't think of any other things that are my favourites... any ideas to what I should favorize next? A favourite store maybe? Or sunglasses... I don't know. Lol. This was my beginner's-list. I can always add to it :P

~Leene~ "You don't have to speak for me to believe you..." xoxx

A Million Dollar FairyTale

You know what you did now? You made it possible for me to write without pictures, so now I'll be doing it all the time... You'll never see a picture again... XD no, I'm kidding.

I've just woken up from sleeping a couple of hours. Yeah, since I didn't wanna go get ice-cream, I fell asleep while waiting for the guests to leave, lol. But I have now had my ice-cream, and it's all goood :P

I'm wondering what to do next... I've seen all of Bones (sadly =( I love those two silly sweethearts), all of The Girls Next Door, all of Supernatural... waaah. I guess I'll keep watching Vampire High, which is an old Tv Show I found on Youtube. It's around the time of Buffy, so the fashion isn't that great (vanity), but it's about vampires, and it's about the best I can do atm. :P

"Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts.
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts."

~Leene~ "We made you" xoxx

P.S. I want to make a doll.

Phaalangeees.... Dancing phalangeeess... :P

Maybe this is just good. The whole blog thing I mean. If everyone I knew read it, I wonder if it would change anything... I wonder alot. I wonder if I'm crazy, if it even matters, if it's image or just confusion. Well, that's enough wondering for one day.

I sit on the computer for most of my time now that there's holidays. And I see people writing numerous blogs a day, and I comment along the way, but I don't write anything... wow, that's laziness. It's just this thing I have... I can't post a blog without having a picture to go with it... and most of the time, I don't. Gaaah, I need to get over this "fear" of mine. It's like, I don't trust that written things alone can be interesting to other people. Even though they're plenty enough for me. So I see myself completely differently than I see anybody else I know... I guess that's normal.

Anyway, I'm feeling very warm today, and drained, and that's probably because I slept till past one, and my room heats up like a fucking sauna. My parents have dinner guests upstairs atm, but I don't feel up for socialising. Basically I've been in my little "den" all day. My mom came down with dinner for me (she knows how I feel ^^) but that was a couple hours ago, and now I would really like an ice-cream -which I know we have- but I don't want anyone to see me with the way I feel today... How's that for vanity? But I don't mind, I love being vain. ^^ And that was probably stupidity. I don't know. I love analysing things too, but my sense of observation is either very simplistic or very complex, because my mind puts things together that other people think are completely unreasonable, and negative.

And now I feel fine that I've given another little insight into the mind of moi, so I'm gonna go watch the last episode of Bones. I think Gorgonzola or Goobagon or whoever is gonna be seen, and it slightly creeps me, but is also a bit interesting.

And behold; I haven't posted a single picture. Wow, this is not gonna take.

Ciao loves.

~Leene~ "I'm not philistine, I'm Catholic." <3 xoxx

Midsummer night's dreams

Listening to slow songs, getting updated on the things I watch online. I'm getting ready to go down to my grandparents house and have a bbq, since it's midsummer. There will be a bunch of people there, so I'm thinking I'll slip away mid-way XD it's what I always do, lol.

Also, I wish I had Amy Winehouse's hair... ^^ I know the woman's a mess, but hey; I don't like them perfect people anyway :P and I always liked her hair. It's so big, and wild, and "last-night"-ish... lol. Anyway, my hair is too short to do anything pretty with, and I wish I had a hair-stylist. But then again, who wouldn't want that? ^^ My summer-hair would definitely be the Beehive. <3



Now I have to run, I'm late for a bbq that I should have been getting ready for, but instead I was here, blogging for you guys. ^^ Love me. Anyway, I leave you with two summer-photos, and don't be afraid, coz I don't even think I'm holding that shotgun right. :P

~Leene~ "Driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cakehole." xoxx

Why am I supposed to be lost?

I am one of those people who believe that everything happens for a reason. I probably got it from Charmed, which have basically been my guidelines my whole life (people-wise, not magic-wise...) but regardless, this is my belief. So then today it struck me; why am I supposed to be lost? I'd never even thought of it that way before, but if I am to listen to my belief (which would seem natural, duh) then I should think I'm lost for a reason. That I'm at a weird place for a reason. That I feel the way I do for a reason. I've never even thought about it like that before, but now it makes so much sense! Except that I don't know the reason yet. See, that's the thing about my belief; it comes with alot of "wait & see" and patience... which we all know I'm not great with. It's a bit ironical.

Anyway, so now I'm thinking "the reason for someone to be lost, would be that they eventually have to find themselves", which again leads me to think "but wouldn't it just be easier if we were found at birth? (so to speak)"... I don't even know if this makes any sense to you? But I guess it helps me to understand God a bit more, and to accept the things that happen to me. Of course it's also up to each one of us, but there's always a grand design, and I think it's randomness. God lets us decide what we want from life, and in the end it turns out to be an abstract -yet concrete- masterpiece.

Oh man, I'm rambling. My whole point though, is just that there is a reason for why I'm still looking for the meaning of life, and why I haven't decided who I want to be yet. Hell, the meaning of my life might not even be invented yet! (yeah, that's far-fetched, but you get my point =P) So kitties, the conclusion is; if my life doesn't have a meaning, there's a meaning for that.
... Don't you just love my logic? ^^



-Scandals and loyalties,

~Leene~ "In the face of true love, you don't just give up... even if the object of your affection is begging you to." xoxx

"I love you too" - Chuck Bass.

Isn't it ironic how a TV show can determine our happiness from day to day? Remember last week I was in tears and chaos over Nobu and Hachi's impossible love-triangle, and today... today is love. ^^ I have watched the last episodes of Gossip Girl season two, and I couldn't be happier. Finally a season finale with a happy ending. And what an ending! All I can say is; FINALLY!! Chuck Bass, it took you long enough, but oh! how thrilled I am! All the shit, and all the drama was SO WORTH IT in the end! Blair got her "I love you's" returned, and next season I'm expecting a wedding, or at least a major engagement. :P cuz that's just the way I roll. And seriously; who wouldn't wanna marry Chuck Bass? (a)




(Picture 1: The beginning of Chuck & Blair: the romance-dance. (lol, great rhyme ;P)
Picture 2: The season two finale, the big moment, the "I love you TOO" commitment ^^
Picture 3: What Twilight would have looked like with Chuck & Blair... and if you ask me, it looks even better than the original ^^ and that's how much I love them <3.)

Now I'm off to watch some fourth season Supernatural, and some first season Girl's next door... the holiday is so on. :) I'll update more later, tonight when I won't be falling asleep at a respectable hour... again. Wah, sleepless nights, what can you really do? :P

~Leene~ "And who am I? That's a secret I'll never tell ;)" xoxo (gossip girl ^^)

Sweet-talking, sugar-coated candy man.

My holiday has officially begun. Yesterday was the last day of "school", which we ended with a gathering of the whole school, where our teachers had picked out the most embarrassing photos of each of us, and showed it on big screen for everyone to see... oh, how I loved my teacher at that moment. I swear I could've strangled her with my own hair! Gosh, besides, isn't it technically illegal to take pictures of people unless they say it's ok? Well, I never said it was ok, stupid twat.

Anywaaaay, on to more boring topics; I'm so effing bored!!! :P yeah, that's how my holidays usually start off. I guess it's because this isn't a regular weekend where I have to do as much lazing about as I can before Monday comes again, because this weekend will be just like the rest of the week. I don't have any school on Monday, so I'm not even in weekend-mode. :( *single emo tear* whyyy does this always happen?? Why can't I just fool myself to THINK that it's only a normal weekend? Bah. I can't wait to go to London, I need to do me some serious shopping, and just being incredibly fucking busy all the time. I love being busy.

Well, I'm gonna go now, before I fall asleep and crush poor Josefine (my laptop <3). See y'all tomorrow, my little kitties. ^^

~Leene~ "I just wanna feel the day today." xoxx

I want you to want me, I need you to need me.

The most brilliant song ever, as it is so honest, selfish and to-the-point. And it's the human truth, so there. I admire this song.

"I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
And I'd love you to love me

BRIDGE:
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I put on a brand new shirt
I get home early from work
If you say that you love me

CHORUS:
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

BRIDGE:
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I put on a brand new shirt
I get home early from work
If you say that you love me

CHORUS:
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

Hey

Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
And I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
And I want you to want me"

On another note; I've calmed down considerably, and now I'm just empty and numb. Much better, neh? :P we do have our emotional complain-whiny-blogs, don't we Kini ;) but then we calm down, appologize, and fight the fear away. So don't be afraid, nya? =P

I don't want to go to school tomorrow (when do I ever?), I feel so drained... and I'm gonna buy an island! (how's that for random ;) =P) I read in the local paper today that there is an island for sale... 2.2 mill in Norwegian, which means times ten in English (don't ask me to do maths tho... haha!) Now, it wasn't the best island (no electricity) but hey... having any island would be good enough, neh? ^^ :] I at least want one. Then I have my very own Neverland to hide away to. And then I'll kidnap a bunch of bishounen, and we'll never leave and be happy always! <3 As I quote; "everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."

I also thought that instead of being a playboy bunny, I'd wanna be a playboy kitty... ^^ :P and I'll be like the female version of Hef (except being young), and live on my island with all my bishies. Hahahah! XD Beat that! :P I really should make a list of everyone I'd bring to my island. Earlier today I was gonna call it "Nana Island", but now I'm just pissed at the whole Nana-plot, so I'd rather call it "Shin Island"... XD no, I'd prefer "Aoyagi Island"... because it has a nice flow, and is taken from Aoyagi Ritsuka's name in Loveless (loveless Island seemed a bit too dark and angsty-emo... :P specially for a playboy kitty island, lol.) I'm so weird to think of all these things, but whatever. It passes the time until I leave this world anyway ^^ *deep emo moment, but not really* Maybe "Aoyagi-Shin Island"... and why am I thinking this through so thoroughly again? XD lol. It's because I love it.

~Leene~ "Do it like you do it to me." xoxx

TASUKETE!!!

Ok, so I was gonna blog earlier (which would have been better and more happy-filled), but then I was tired and couldn't be arsed, and now I'm fucking emotional, and so you'll just have to deal with the fact that this blog will be depressing and shit. ^^ Sorry in advance, but I figure I'm allowed one slip-up... and all that statement did was remind me of why I'm depressed in the first place. Stupid brain.

So, here's the story: I was happily watching Nana anime, and falling more and more in love with all the characters by the minute. Nana/Hachi and Nobu were clearly in love, and when she finally dumped that bastard-Takumi and confessed her love for Nobu, I was SO FUCKING HAPPY YOU WON'T EVEN BELIEVE IT! It was like I had found the meaning of life!! ... ok, maybe not, but it was SO POWERFUL (Yasawa Ai, you fucking genius moron...)
Ok, so then I was happy for a couple of episodes, until Hachi suddenly discovers that she's pregnant! And that idiot Nobu had used protection all the damn time, so the kid would most likely be bastard-Takumi's... this is my face: -_______- And Takumi decided he wants Hachi for himself, and they're now getting married!! ... stupid stupid shit!
And Nana Osaki and Nobu are acting like spoiled kids! It's as if Hachi was their toy, but Takumi stole their toy, and now their pride is making them be all "I don't want her anymore"... BAKAAAAAA!!! And you think SHE is the bad guy!?!? Nana/Hachi is the victim... :'( I hate the fact that I get so emotional when I watch things.

But the turn of this show was seriously giving me stomach-ache (I'm thinking a fucking Ulcer...), and all I could do was skip to the couple of last episodes (I'm currently on 36/47...) just to see if things would work out... They don't. Hachi has a kid, and Nana Osaki runs away, Nobu and Hachi still love each-other, and Takumi (the dirtbag) is cheating on Hachi, his wife. Why do I put myself through these things?

I learned a long time ago that I don't have the kinda heart to watch sad movies. I can feel everything that goes on there, and it's too painful. If I had known this would happen in this anime, I wouldn't have watched it. That's why I seem childish; because I's rather watch shows with a lot of humour, as opposed to ones with reality in them.

Well, I'm gonna go now, so this blog isn't all ruined... more anyway.


I'll leave you with the cutest little cat in the world, and say that I want Shin-chan to be my teddy-toy! :D what could be better than a mature 15-year old prostitute-rebel boy? ^^


~Leene~ "If you would be my garage band king, I would be your punk rock princess." xoxx

"I have ten fingers, you have ten fingers; let's be friends!" :]

Soooo... the biggest news of this week must be; I dyed my hair... brown :O yeah, I'm weird. After years of going from blonde to black, always claiming "brown is an awful hair-colour on me, I looked awful, never doing it again, no way, it's so not me, it's so plain, it's so boring, it's for "smart-people", people who never change", I go ahead and pull something like this... it's no surprise really, I'm always contradicting myself, and doing the complete opposite of what people are expecting of me, because I like shocking people, and I'm a child like that ^^ It's one of my bad qualities I guess :P

Anyway, today has been a lazy day, with me just sitting on the couch watching Disney Channel (the Emperor's new school, which I adore <3) and eating and blogging... lol. Tomorrow though, we leave for Bergen at nine in the morning... which means, AGAIN, I have to wake up early on a day off. Blah.

My friend has recently developed an obsession with the Jonas Brothers... which is horrifying! :S she talks about them constantly, and I don't know what it is, but I don't see them as musicians, I see them as Disney stars... Hmm. Whatever. My favourite Disney Star is Jason Dolley, who plays Newt in "Cory in the House"... I can't get enough, lol. He's my new obsession. Lol, how does it feel to be an obsession, Jason?! XD I can't wait to see "Hatching Pete"... ^^

I realize there are a lot of pics of me in this blog, but it's coz of my new hair :P so deal, yeah?

So, I'm off to watch "Cory in the House" full seasons on Surfthechannel with my sister now (she has no idea yet, poor girl... ^^) Feeding my obsession to the fullest, that's the only known cure I've found. If I work through it, it'll leave quickly ^^ If I starve it, I'll be like a deprived whore in the end... just begging for it :S and that's not a nice sight. ^^ Ciao my loves!

~Leene~ "I was a dancer all along." xoxx

I love it when they're freaking out...

Tomorrow I'm going to the hairdressers at NINE AM.!! ... Who does that? :P It's just because we have the day off, and I need to go to my dad's before two o'clock. I still haven't packed, and it's a super-long weekend, as we have both tomorrow and Monday off... Aaaand I'm going to Bergen with my dad from Sunday to Monday, watching a football game... Brann <3 :P yeah, I can do sporty... when I feel like it. Anyway, tomorrow I'm doing glam, as I always feel really cool and famous when I have to wake up early. Yeah, I realize it makes no sense and I'm weird. So sue me. Lol.

Also, it's my friend's 18th birthday next weekend, and she's celebrating it the weekend after. I'm hoping I'll be here for that, then come to England maybe around the 30th of June, till the 10th of July. I can't wait to be back in London. The other day I actually felt like I was going home... until I realized "this is home". Which was kind of depressing, but oh well :P

I should really go to sleep now, but I just wanted to pop in here and let'ya know I might be M.I.A until Tuesday... :S but hopefully I'll shop alot so I have something to tell ;) haha.

Listening to Nicole Richie's "Dandelion" atm, it's so cute. Also, Pussycat Dolls are back in my ipod... :P I'm into the old music these days, like the stuff I listened to TWO SUMMERS AGO... like "Buttons", or even farther back, like "Don't cha"... o_O It's because I'm watching blonde movies and shows, like Girls next door these days. I love Hef; so cute ^^ ;)

"He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought he was a flower
But I found out he's a weed"

One picture of me in the "Sexy Nurse Gro" hat that we made during school one day, for our life-size (well, model's life-size, not normal people =P) mannequin... that we used to draw, but now we just have her, and I named her Gro. ^^ We love her very much. Picture of her too. That was the most constructive thing we did that day (make hair, hat and drape the dress around Gro, we cut her hair out of yellow paper), seriously. Which should be sad :P but it's not anymore, because it's in the past ^^ lol. Simple as that.

~Leene~ "I don't think you can handle this." xoxx

I fall in love with ideas, not people.

I fall in love with ideas, not people. I've never been in love with a person, but I've been in love with hundreds of ideas of people. I'll see someone cute, and think how nice it would be to be with them, but all the while I'm fully aware that I'm creating myself a picture of how I'm thinking that person oughta be - it's not fact or reality (as far as I know). I suppose it's a sort of game, for girls who haven't found anyone special yet... whatever, I'm addicted to said game.

This is probably a weird thing to be thinking after watching "Girls next door"... :P but hey, I'd live there.

The thing is, with me, you get everything. I'm a bit of most things, and I don't think I'm predictable that way. Maybe my moods can be foreseen, but my personality can't. It's split probably... unfortunate, or good maybe? It's just that you can't choose the one you like best; they all come in random orders, at random times. It's sort of a "right person at the right time" deal... Except it's only one person, multiple times. ... this is confusing, no?




"I cannot help myself, I'm just doing what I do,
Got my heart set, do anything that I want so thank you,
I like it and I do what I like,
And if do what I like, then you'll like it."

~Leene~ "I'm an addict for dramatics, I confuse the two for love." xoxx

Call off the search, we've found her

I found something cute (if a little sick).



I finally found it, the thing I didn't know existed, but I kept being fascinated by; it's guro-loli <3 XP "The concept of Guro Lolita is mainly to take on the appearance of a broken doll." I. love. it. :] Google it, lol. As Becky Bloomwood says in 'Confessions of a shopaholic'; "yes, I googled." XD

~Leene~ "You should be killed by an army of little girls..." xoxx

The passion I'm gonna call my life.

Sooo, I'm sitting in school right now, thinking about all the things I wanna do... and why is it that Japan seems the cutest place in the world? Is it just because it's far-away, exotic and different, or is it more? Everything just seems purer over there, more fairy-tale-y... is it wrong to not want to live in the "real" world? :P

We should go to Japan and try out as Geisha's... we probably won't succeed, but then we'll go to "Baby, the stars shine bright" and become lolita instead. Its as if everything is allowed, but in a good way.


Imagine how awesome it would be to be able to wear these clothes, and not feel like a freak.


That's just a bit of wonderland for you.

~Leene~ "There's no place else I could be but here in your arms." xoxx

I need your love. I'm a broken rose.

Why do chinese movies always end with EVERYONE dying? ... o_O me not likes. And it's such a shame, because they're so beautiful movies, but have the saddest endings! :( I've justed watched "The Banquet", and I really like Zhang Ziyi. She was amazing in "Memoirs of a Geisha", which is one of my definite favourites, as it was the beginning of my obsession ^^ Also, "Curse of the Golden Flower" is one of the most brutal... I was in shock XD so much death and corruption.

Moving to japanese movies, I really l.o.v.e "Nana". Everyone is so cute, and it's a great girly-movie. :] Kamikaze girls probably is too, but I've only seen half an hour :( I also haven't seen "Nana 2" or "Death Note" live movie, but we're getting there ^^

I've actually been a good little girl today, and practiced my japanese... I just wish I could learn it faster, and make it stick properly. Blah.

I'm going to go watch some "Nana" anime now, and draw some probably. ^^

Sayonara!

~Leene~ "The lonely little girl who crumbles." xoxx