You're the one that I want!

Emma Watson has just made the list of people I like and find inspirational ^_^ Recently she's become very mature, confident, and she's just gorgeous isn't she? :]

So, today I woke up around one thirty, had breakfast, and continued watching Fringe, which is one of my new shows. It's scary, and creepy, and makes me say "eww" alot (out loud, alone in my room... I'm sure people should think me crazy ^^ :P). Despite all this, I highly enjoy it, and I'm just glad to have something new to watch.

Yesterday was spent pretty much the same, with the exception of me going to school before watching Fringe, and then ending the day with "Grease", which leads me to this youtube video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7Iv2NlZYYM :D it's the coolest thing ever! :) And that movie also made me think that "damnnnn, John Travolta is Hottt" :P which I never thought I would think, lol. But he shakes his ass damn much in that film, and wearing his black clothes, and his blue eyes that look like he's wearing eyeliner... ooh la la. ;) I like it.


Now I have to go help my mom make taco's, then we're gonna watch Heartbeat. This is a tradition we have every Saturday: taco's and Heartbeat :] ever since I was little.
After that I'm thinking either Veronica Mars season 1, or Harry Potter 6 movie... :P which I've yet to see :O :P

(I love the picture of Emma and all the books... I want to do photoshoots like that too :] *pouty face* lol)

~Leene~ "You better shape up, cause I need a man." xoxx

Nobody puts Baby in a corner!

I feel like watching Dirty Dancing now, and wonder if maybe I should order it online... but I have a long list of things I want, and I can't have it all... :P I've never seen Dirty Dancing though, so maybe I should prioritize ;) Roswell seasons 1-3 is another on my list, as I've been having cravings to watch it for a couple of days now.

I think I'll watch Grese when I get home :P Lately I've been extremely into old shows and old movies. I think it's because everything was so innocent in the "old" days, and I'm kind of sick of backstabbing and corruption for the time being. Every new show these days is about cheating, backstabbing, lying, discovering how other's get hurt by what you do, appologizing, doing bad things all over again, drugs, drinking, and every other thing you could possibly do. And I'm so sick of it. I think we get it; teenagers of today = easily and badly influenced! -_-

Now, the old shows on the other hand... so innocent! I mean, of course people did bad things and made mistakes then too, but they learnt from their mistakes, and appologized like they meant it. They don't do that anymore. Don't we learn from our mistakes any more?? So even if I have to watch them wearing their weird clothes, and weird hair, it's much better because it's the innocence of the first time doing things. :] I'm so nostalgic these days. Wanting to watch shows like Sweet Valley High, Popular, Beverly Hills 90210, So little time, Eerie Indiana, Sunset Beach and Roswell. And that's just a handfull of them. :P I think I'm gonna have to invest in some of these seasons on DVD... :P

Anyway, I have to go do some facemask work now... Can't wait to get home -_-

~Leene~ "It's too late to think of the value of my life." xoxx

I'm unstable...

I'm sitting in lunch period now, trying not to faint from the AWFUL smell. Since they're still not done with the building inside school, today they've apparently used something with disgusting smell to build or paint or whatever. And it is killing us! Bah.

Anyway, yesterday was a crazy day, and I'm so glad it's over ^^ Today is much better, but I have things to remember, and things to do for myself. I think everyday should be spa-day, I think I could use a massage or something to relax my body. Thinking too much is unhealthy, coz it makes you tense, and stressed, and worried, and then you get wrinkles... -_- :P so how about we try to do everything in a fun way? I guess I have my ways of making things interesting, and maybe I'll share those later... ;) But today is homework day nonetheless (even if I do still have two episodes left of Gossip Girl... :S) But that comes later ^^ Time to pretend I'm still the good girl I used to be :P (way, way, WAY back in the day mind ;) :P)

So, lets talk something fun. I found an A-M-A-Z-I-N-G blog today:
http://cherrypop.over-blog.com/
now, it's partly in french, so I've no idea what it says, but the pictures are so cute! <3 :)

Have to go now, as I need to find somewhere to hide out for the next two periods... o_O ooh.

~Leene~ "cherry pop, pop." xoxx

I'll never look pretty again

I probably shouldn't be blogging right now, as I am an emotional wreck, but what the hell. Writing makes me feel better, and I want to feel better. Simple as that.

:P ok, so between blogging, and feeling sorry for myself, I've grown tired. I've been here a while now, and it's late. I have a test tomorrow, for which I'm not prepared. I figure I should care. I don't.

Am I ok? Who knows.
Does anybody know? Probably not.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tFRf8vtkRk&feature=related
Watching this makes me feel a little better, but also it reminds me of things I'm not very good at thinking about.Things that I haven't yet managed to turn into something good and happy. Things of which we do not speak.

I'm going to leave you with a bunch of pictures now; so here's what comes up when you google "pain" or "love pain" ^^ :P randomness.









ciao for now ^^

~Leene~ "about to fall off." xoxx

Do you believe in magic?

We shouldn't hang around people who don't belive in us, because it's exhausting and it tears our spirits down. Friends are supposed to believe in you, even when you can't believe in yourself. So if your friends don't belive in you, do they even know you at all? Doesn't that mean you can't possibly be real friends? How can you trust someone who doesn't belive in you?

I don't know, but this is one of the thoughts circling in my mind today.

Do you believe?

~Leene~ "I do." xoxx

My better half has bitten me

Tonight I've seen the movie "Jennifer's body", and I must say, it's amazing :P funny, scary, cool, sexy... I just liked it. :P Definitely going to buy it on dvd, lol. Um, I've also seen the first six episodes of the new show "Vampire diaries" with my sister this weekend, and we're both in love :P with the show, obviously, though I -personally- am also in love with Damon Salvatore ;) (or Boone, as you'd know him from "Lost").







I don't really have much else to say at the moment, as I'm really tired, and going to go to bed since it's Monday tomorrow :P

So night night ^^

~Leene~ "they found pieces of Jennifer's body..." xoxx

You have to follow through

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I, haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet

So, since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through

These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what Im holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart

So, since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through

The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
oh what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart

So since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday

So since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow







Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?

~Leene~ "We are beautiful" xoxx

Are you catering to my crazy whims again?

This morning I hit the wall. Quite literally :P you see, the light in the hall outside my room is broken, so the entire basement is completely dark when I make my way up the stairs... unfortunately, before I reach the stairs there is a space I have to go through, where there's a wall. And in darkness, I thought I could coordinate whereabout the wall was; cue me fumbling with my hands stretched out in front of me thinkiing "the edge of the wall should be around here somewhere, but I can't feel it"-*BAMMMMMM* in my face!! Oh yeah baby, believe it. My whole front side, smack straight into the wall... ouccch :P this obviously resulted in me giggling- because I'm mental like that ^^ I mean, come oooon... it's hilarious, neh? xD but not something I'd much like to experience again, and I'm therefore relieved my step-dad has put a new lightbulb in. ^^ thank yoooou.

On to new topics; I'm in love with my shower. It makes me feel warm, and happy, and content, and I luuuuurrrrveeee it :D baby love! <33 (and yes, the hotness of it does go to my head, and I'm cuh-razy and acting like a lovestruck teenager about it... but whose to judge me? ^^)
It makes me think I would like to start updating my blog at least once a day, just to tell the world what I fell in love with that day. Since we all know it's gonna be something or the other. But I just know I won't commit to it (like nothing else in this world), so I won't make any false promises. It's a nice thought though, as I have so many of. (and if you've noticed I've gone more italics crazy these past blog-days, its simply because I've just resently figured out how to work the italics-mojo. Yes, I'm pathetic, and weird. Get over it :P Italics, however, are another thing I love, and it should always be written in italics ^^ hi hi)

Right now I want to tell myself: "don't ever put glitter-nailpolish on your nails again, stupid girl, I don't care if you're drunk." It's hell to get off, truuust me. -_- But tonight I'm going for the more mature look... of purple ^_~ :P

Anyways, let me tell you about tomorrow. Dreadful tomorrow. I do not want tomorrow. Why? Because of face-mask... stupid face-mask. See, our teachers got it in their heads that everybody should put white plaster all over their faces, only making holes to breathe through, then keep that on for god-knows-how-long, before removing it. Now, this was done on wednesday, you know, the day I decided to stay home. Naturally this made me think "yay! I don't have to do it! :D" but ooh, nooo, was I wrong. Because my teacher told me today that I have to do it tomorrow. Well, let me tell you something; I AM NOT DOING IT! I am terrified, can't you tell?? And yeah, I'm probably being childish and my stubborn self for refusing this, but I don't care. I have done it before, and I feel abso-fucking-lutely no need to do it again. See, it was in year 7 that our teachers also found it a good idea to make face-masks, but at that time I was a 12 year old child, and couldn't say no (no matter how scared SHITLESS I was). They told us stories of how we couldn't move while wearing said mask, and that there could well be possibilities that it wouldn't come off easily (causing pain to our FACES), and also I lost like half my eyelashes when I got it off! -_- and you lot wonder whyy I have such strong oppositions to doing it... -_- pssh. Anyway, all I can remember is feeling so, so scared, and thinking "this will be the only time in my life I'll have to do this, so I'll survive it this once and be done with it", and that's what kept me sane back then. And now they tell me I have to do it AGAIN? NOOOOOOO!!!! (I know I'm making this a big deal, but to me it is, ok? So just let me be, and don't try to give me a fucking anxiety attack!) :P
So I don't care if the teacher thinks he can make my friends "persuade" me into doing it (yes, he actually asked, or told, them to persuade me... o_o stupid mutt), because I don't see why it should be obligatory to make me so scared just for an assignment/grades. It's not right. Things like that should be optional, for the brave. I am not ashamed of being a coward when it comes to keeping my sanity (AND EYELASHES) intact, sumimasen.
And if he indeed manages to threaten me into doing it (or scare me some more), then I promise to hate him for the rest of my stay in school. No excuses, no forgivness.

Wah, I'm sick of rambling on about this now, but it's not nearly out of my system. Fucking shiitttt. -_- I need my moonikins-fixxxx, my sweet panic-boys, my darling-Dorian, anythingggg.




Scene-picture, anyone? :P

My room is somewhere on the right side, and the wall on the left side (where the big canvas is) is where I SMACKED into... xP the stairs are behind said wall, you can just about see them...

P.S. Coke-caps are another thing I'm in love with, as I've been in love with Coke and Pepsi my whole life ^^

Listening to Follow Through by Gavin Degraw, as it seems to calm me somewhat. Damn stupid lovesongs. I thought I was over that (not that I ever really started). Why should promises of love make me feel better?

~Leene~ "Am I too obvious to preach it?" xoxx

The moonlight had them naked... what? =P

Watch this, it's funny. :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCv-NKl7uuQ

So, I'm gonna go to bed now, but I couldn't leave without posting a little laugh :P This day has been really good, relaxing (as so many of my days are) and I just felt like sharing :] :P So... do it ;)

Oyasumi nasai!

~Leene~ "Love's like this..." xoxx

One simple word: love

Ok, so I suppose I should let it be known that I stayed in bed all day today... buuut, as karma would have it, I ate a bad slice of bread and got a bit nauseaus around ten-ish! :P So I told my teacher I was sick... because for a moment there, I was (a) 0:)

"Accidents can happen to anyone; but so can scandals, and they're much more fabulous!"

I haven't been reading Dorian lately, it seems we took a break from our relationship. He's busy with Sybil, and I'm busy with Dylan. With Logan. With Draco, Harry, Remus and Sirius.
I'm pretty sure loving everyone fully is better than loving noone at all. I'm sure a broken heart is better than no heart at all. [Geez, I'm feeling deep all of a sudden... -_-] I'd rather wear my heart on my sleeve, than to not be sure if it's even in there. If I like someone, I have to tell them. If there's even a small possibility that anything might happen, I need to be open about it. I have a responsibility to be honest, and then people are free to do what they want with it. They can throw it back in my face, or let it turn into something breathtaking. They can make me momentarily weak, or give us both a reason to live.
I used to think letting people know you like them was the most embarrassing thing in the world, because what if -horror- they don't like me back? How utterly embarrassing! But now I think "what the hell?" I'm not going to be embarrassed because I love. Love should be a proud thing. I'm proud that I can finally admit to loving things, and people, and places.

"People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily- that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve… I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and the children. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and Dr. Pepper. I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either. I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me."





Well, this has been an awfully cheerful post... so I'll go do some angsty teenage stuff now to make up for it =^_^= like watching a movie.
See ya later, baby love! <3

~Leene~ "You happen to take me by complete and utter surprise." xoxx

This is where we both get scared

So, I overslept today, and am currently sitting in bed, waiting till the right time before next buss leaves. See our school buss leaves at seven thirty, but there's another one at nine that I can take if I run late... but today, I just don't know what to do. They say it's better to have a whole day absent, than just a few hours, because a few hours makes it look like you bunked off, while a whole day means ur ill. And today we have two free periods at the end of the day, and I've already missed the two first periods, so I'd be going in for three periods, plus lunch. And three just doesn't seem that much.

I'm the kind of person who feels guilt straight away when I do something bad. I can't ignore my conscience, and I hate lying to people. So obviously, something like this would bother me. Should I stay home from school today, maybe try to do some homework just to make up for it? Or should I just go to school for three hours then go to my dad's? And if I stay home, should I tell my mom, or shouldn't I, since she's in the city today anyway, and wouldn't know... ? Wah, so many choices, so little time.

~Leene~ xoxx

What kind of dream is this?

Since I woke up early, I feel like I've already had quite a constructive day. Though I haven't eaten yet... been too busy reading Dorian :] I have some more quotes for y'all :P

Henry: "How often do you see him?"
Basil: "Every day. I couldn't be happy if I didn't see him every day. He is absolutely necessary to me." (he is absolutely necessary to me too ;) haha.)

"I asked the question for the best reason possible, for the only reason, indeed, that excuses one for asking any question - simply curiosity."

"The only things one never regrets are one's mistakes."

"And though I am a little jealous of the picture for being a whole month younger than I am, I must admit that I delight in it." (:P Dorian being Dorian again.)

"I know, now, that when one loses one's good looks, whatever they may be, one loses everything. Youth is the only thing worth having. When I find that I am growing old, I shall kill myself." (three guesses which vain person said this... :P indeed, it was my love. Haha, and it's what makes me love him.)

"I know what pleasure is. It is to adore some one." :] I have felt pleasure then. Lol.

Anyway, I must go now; time to get ready for the day :P (pictures of me and my friends in school last week :P)

~Leene~ "And I hope it rains." xoxx

I just wanna be ok

OK, it's elleven o'clock now, and I got woken up before ten this morning. BEFORE TEN! That's CRAZY! It's coz John's parents are visitting us now, and they sleep in the guest room, which is next to my room, and this morning my 5 year old brother thought it a great idea to come downstairs and wake them up. He was shouting alot, and running around out in the hall... I mean, at first I was impressed because he speaks great English, which means he obviously hasn't forgotten it :] this is good. Buuuut, after a while it wasn't so cute anymore, as I COULDN'T SLEEP! So I turned my Ipod on to try and sleep, but by then I was already too awake to make it back into la-la-land. :( It's probably coz I spent most of the day yesterday sleeping.

I got home at three thiry, had a shower, then a nap for half an hour before dinner. Then when I was done eating, I wanted to sleep again, so I slept another half hour, then read a chapter of Dorian Gray (he's engaged to Sybil Vane now... ah, the irony.) then slept till like ten thirty, at which John's parents had arrived, and I went upstair to say hello, before going back downstairs and listening to some music and drawing until one am, when I went to bed, again.

I was just so exhausted, and it's the holiday now so what the heck? (yea, we don't have school all of next week :D) Today I'm going down to my grandparents house, because my aunt is there visitting since yesterday, and she brought her boyfriend, which none of us have met yet :P also my uncle is coming today.

And now I'm going to eat, and draw some more (I'm trying to find my inspiration again, and be creative because not crating anything is making me depressed and I don't like that anymore :P) and read about Dorian's stupid crush on Sybil. He needs to get over that. :P haha.

So toodles! :]

~Leene~ "By the end of the night I'm a have you so fucked up" xoxx